A prop's journey

I've fallen off the rails a bit the last few weeks. I had a good game on Saturday and I didn't drink much over the weekend, but I have felt my mentality slipping more of late. Uni and work shit are piling up. Injury and sickness are preventing me from doing anything strenuous at the moment. Once I get better (flu) and my body recovers (having big flexibility issues) I know I'll be ready to go and properly hit off season training. This thought really doesn't seem like it needs chronically, but I guess I just wanted to. Gotta say though, alcohol is really going to be a problem for me. I can't drink and train. I need to figure out some drinking scheme such that I can enjoy myself and still be good for training. I responsible engough to never drinking on the night before a game, even though my stance on that has begun to slip too. All my mates just get ridden off every weekend and I'm usually leading the charge and spending Sunday in a dark room with an ice pack. But then I feel weaker for days afterwards and I can deal with that. It's not the physical side effects that throw me. My whole outlook shifts after I drink. The mistakes I make and way I think are fucken detrimental. Honestly, I'm not going to not shift teams if I keep going this way. Don't get me wrong I'll still be there on club nights causing a raucus, but I'm really going to restrict intake outside of that. I was in a shit mood before my fingers slammed the keyboard today, but now.... things look better. The track that I'm on is easy to fall off of, and difficult to get back on. That's why I don't want anything helping me to tip. Rickety enough dammit.